Unseen/Unknown ('Unseen' entry)
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Title: 'Unseen/Unknown'
Rating: G
Genre: Introspection/Character Study
Word Count: 330
Pairings or Characters: Missy, Twelfth Doctor
Spoilers: Takes place during 'Dark Water'/'Death in Heaven'
Warnings: None
Summary: You didn't know me when you saw me. Or perhaps I should say you didn't see me when you knew me.
You didn't know me when you saw me. Or perhaps I should say you didn't see me when you knew me.
You never truly saw me. You never wanted to.
Either way, you didn't recognize me. I should be more surprised than I am. More...hurt.
And I am hurt, Doctor. So very, very hurt...you could always wound me, when no one else could...
But, then, I always knew you so well, didn't I? I always knew that you were one to miss the most important things. You could never see the forest for the--
No. That's too limiting for the two of us. Too...Earth.
I always hated that little planet. It always monopolized your attention, attention that would have been put to better use elsewhere...
Let's put it this way: You couldn't see the galaxy for the stars.
Deep down, though, I think that you ultimately knew. Knew that there was a, shall we say, Mastermind behind it all. You knew, deep down, that you were playing into someone's hands. Or perhaps "knew" is the wrong word. "Suspected" might be more accurate.
And this face of yours does Suspicion so well. Those frowny eyebrows beetling over those eyes--what color would you call your eyes, anyway? They've never been so indefinable. The way they stare into mine, so accusatory, so uncertain...
You didn't know me.
It might be my own fault; you've never known me to take on female form. But I thought that it would get your attention. I thought that, perhaps, just this once, I could get what I've always wanted from you.
I've always wanted you to see me.
You've always seen in me what you wanted to see. The childhood friend, gone to the bad. The age-old adversary, worthy only of your fear and contempt, even as the affection slipped in.
Fear and contempt are lovely. Affection is nice. But it isn't enough. It's never been enough. And it never will be.
Because you never...
Saw...
Me.
Rating: G
Genre: Introspection/Character Study
Word Count: 330
Pairings or Characters: Missy, Twelfth Doctor
Spoilers: Takes place during 'Dark Water'/'Death in Heaven'
Warnings: None
Summary: You didn't know me when you saw me. Or perhaps I should say you didn't see me when you knew me.
You didn't know me when you saw me. Or perhaps I should say you didn't see me when you knew me.
You never truly saw me. You never wanted to.
Either way, you didn't recognize me. I should be more surprised than I am. More...hurt.
And I am hurt, Doctor. So very, very hurt...you could always wound me, when no one else could...
But, then, I always knew you so well, didn't I? I always knew that you were one to miss the most important things. You could never see the forest for the--
No. That's too limiting for the two of us. Too...Earth.
I always hated that little planet. It always monopolized your attention, attention that would have been put to better use elsewhere...
Let's put it this way: You couldn't see the galaxy for the stars.
Deep down, though, I think that you ultimately knew. Knew that there was a, shall we say, Mastermind behind it all. You knew, deep down, that you were playing into someone's hands. Or perhaps "knew" is the wrong word. "Suspected" might be more accurate.
And this face of yours does Suspicion so well. Those frowny eyebrows beetling over those eyes--what color would you call your eyes, anyway? They've never been so indefinable. The way they stare into mine, so accusatory, so uncertain...
You didn't know me.
It might be my own fault; you've never known me to take on female form. But I thought that it would get your attention. I thought that, perhaps, just this once, I could get what I've always wanted from you.
I've always wanted you to see me.
You've always seen in me what you wanted to see. The childhood friend, gone to the bad. The age-old adversary, worthy only of your fear and contempt, even as the affection slipped in.
Fear and contempt are lovely. Affection is nice. But it isn't enough. It's never been enough. And it never will be.
Because you never...
Saw...
Me.
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Date: 2014-11-27 06:22 am (UTC)*huggggggggggggggg*
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Date: 2014-11-27 06:29 am (UTC)*huggggggggggg* ♥
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Date: 2014-12-18 05:45 pm (UTC)Because you never...
Saw...
Me.
yes bitches!
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Date: 2014-12-18 08:22 pm (UTC)Thanks for that; this one was so much fun to write! ♥