The Things to Remember ("Veil" entery)

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Title: The Things to Remember
Rating:        PG
Word count: 351
Spoilers : S4 ending, Donna Noble's ending  
Characters: Donna Noble, 10th Doctor
Episode setting: Journeys end
Summery: Donna is a Time Lord-Human, and she wants more than anything just to stay,

Tears started to form when I realized what was to come. I was a Time lord-Human. I shouldn’t be here, I couldn’t be here. The Doctor stared at me hiding the pain he was in.

“I am sorry. I’m so sorry.”

There was pain in his eyes, I could see through him. I knew he was about to break, but he was stronger than that, he would survive without me. I'm sure of it. But I don't think I can survive without him.

“No! No, no please!” I protested, tears streaming down my face now.

Although my head was bursting with pain I couldn’t let him do this. He placed his hands on my temple and I knew what was happening, I couldn’t bare it. He was my Doctor, I couldn’t loose him. We were a pair, the Doctor/Donna. I wasn't ever going to leave, travel forever.

Memories kept racing towards me, my wedding, the Adipose, Pompeii. Each moment I spent with the Doctor. The memories came, then faded as if covered by a veil, a mist clouded my head, making my vision fuzzy. I tried to hold on, hold on to my Spaceman.

As much as I would like to deny it without him my life was just dull. I was just a less than ordinary person when I met him, I couldn’t loose that. I tried to hold onto just a single memory, but each just fleeted away one after the other. It was like trying to hold water in your hands, it stays for a second. But drips through without anything you can do.

Suddenly I could feel myself slipping into unconsciousness. My only regret was that I never truly did tell him, tell him that he was like family to me. Like a long lost brother, I don’t know where I would be without that idiot. As much as I tried, I couldn’t stop the veil of darkness concealing me from my most precious moments. Then it was over, and I slipped into a world that I didn’t want to go back too.