In All Forms ("Eyes" Entry)

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Title: In All Forms
Characters: 11^th Doctor, Rory, Amy, Prisoner Zero
Rating: G
Spoilers: For “The Eleventh Hour”
Word Count: 374
Episode Setting: The end of Season 5 Episode 1 “The Eleventh Hour”
Summary: The Doctor goes through a short identity crisis after seeing his eleventh regeneration.

Prisoner Zero started to glow and switched forms again, from the Lady with the girls into someone new. It was a man. A man that looked familiar, but not.

I was sure I had not seen him before, but he was very familiar. But it wasn’t supposed to be him, it was Amy that was in the link with Prisoner Zero.

“Well, that’s rubbish. Who’s that supposed to be?” I asked, turning to Amy’s friend.

“That’s you,” he replied, utterly confused by my question.

“Me? That’s what I look like?”

I was surprised to see the raggedy man that stood before me, he was different than I expected, handsome, but different. I had changes oh so many times that sometimes I do forget what I look like, but this, this is the first time I’ve seen this me. I am different now, I feel different. Everything about me had changed, I am a new person, with new everything.

But still being me on the inside, I had found an adventure, a mystery, a game to play, and I would win. Prisoner Zero was no match for me, for any version of me. But inside a filthy feeling started to grow ever larger, guilt. I know this feeling. I have been in this new form for not long, but this feeling is familiar. I feel guilty. Guilty for leaving little Amelia Pond all alone, guilty for all the lives I’ve lived, more than most. Some great people don’t live nearly as long as me but here I am, still kicking.

For a moment I just stared into the eyes of prisoners Zeros copy of me, those were my eyes. I have had many eyes. Just like Prisoner Zero. Always changing, we both are. Does that mean that’s all I am? Just like Prisoner Zero? Am I just a bunch of copies?

No. No, I’ll never be like Prisoner Zero. I am me. I am the Doctor. And as much as I will change, inside and out, I will always be the Doctor. No matter whose eyes I am looking out of, I am me. And now, it is time for me to save the world. Because that is who I am, I am the Doctor.